Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.

- Rumi

a hour's talk can pass us by like a shoulder brushes someone on a 9:00 am Manhattan street in disregard 

my one track thought is how can I ever fit all of my feelings for you into a pattern of symbols and sounds in the most Wittgensteinian sense of the thought

without forgetting to tell you that 

I love you far more than our bodies allow us to

in ways that we just can't physically manipulate ourselves into

i hate myself for being trapped by human constriction, for having to bend to the rules of the universe,

the way an earthworm screams to be released from the dirt, never getting the chance to know

that

there can be worse boundaries than his dusty prison

I’ve been dead to this world for a long time. 
Every day my body grows weaker
and soon it will return to the earth.
It’s not difficult to renounce this life
or this world, 
But to give up Your love, 
that is difficult—
no, impossible.

- Rumi